the stains in my bathroom weigh on my mind - little white dots above my sink from all the times I brush my teeth with extra effort. they're so easy to erase, they are always there. he sees them when he comes over, I'm sure of it. he just says nothing.

I promise myself to clean - I'll clean everything, I'll repaint, I'll buff the sink, I'll scrub away the weird build up from the impurities in the water. I'll fix it all, just like I'll fix everything at work and I never do. It's overwhelming and I won't admit it - I get tired thinking of the bullet point list of minuscule and mammoth items all lumped into one with less than a semblance of real priority, but the trick is - there is NO priority when you know things won't get done.

I have to go to bed, it's late.

I'll change it all. I promise.